Walking on Concrete, Feeling Content

I feel so content.

I should feel terrified. When I think about my future and where I will be 3 months from now, 6 months from now, a year from now... I realize this is the first time in my life that I have no idea what my life will be like. Why do I feel so content?

I've always had a plan that makes sense. I've always been safe with a thick rubber foundation under my feet so if I ever fell, I'd just bounce back up and keep going. I've lived my life without ever worrying about money, shelter, food, clothing, transportation...everything has always been taken care of for me. What an easy, sheltered life I've lived.

My question is... Have I truly lived?

Yes, my life has been worthwhile and everything I've experienced has made me who I am today. Thank goodness I've made many, many mistakes. The regrets I once had have turned to acceptance and even thankfulness - because without my stupidity I would have never learned to depend on God.

And now, I finally have been given a chance to really depend on Him...not because of my stupidity but because I actually listened to His call. I'm leaving all my cushy things and trading them in for... something better? Something worse? Who knows? But, I do know that whatever it is, it will be life changing.

My rubber foundation is being transformed to a concrete foundation. Even though concrete hurts like a **** when you fall on it - it is stronger and helps me walk straight, fast, and balanced.

Being content does not equal living on easy street, lounging around on bean bag chairs, looking forward to creating a new flavor at Coldstone. Being content is following God's lead, learning to trust Him - and being so excited to see what He has around the next bend.