time to say yes...

Everyday I do this life thing...eating, sleeping, working...but nothing means anything anymore unless You are a part of it. I can't focus. I go to work and try to do the motions, but I find myself getting lost in my thoughts of You.

You amaze me. Sometimes You make me want to laugh and jump up and down. Sometimes You make me cry because of how overwhelming You are. I don't understand You. I don't know what You are doing or thinking or saying most of the time. I can't see the big picture and how this will all turn out. But, I know that what You do will be good. I trust that You have it under control.

But, if You have it under control, why does it feel like this world is out of control?

God, we say "Your will be done." But, do we really mean it? How can Your will be done? Logically, You speak to us and we do Your will.

But, what if we don't do it? What if we don't listen? Will You speak to someone else? Or, will Your will just not be done? How many times a day...an hour...a minute...a second are you disappointed by someone? How many people do You have to ask before Your will is done? If we all said yes all the time to Your calls, what would this world be like?

It would be good.

So, who's at fault? Is it me?

I can't say no anymore. It's time to say yes. It's time to put my trust in You and know that You are good. And, when I put my faith in You, I'm giving You the control...and You are exactly the One who should be in control.